“Today is my tomorrow. It’s up to me to shape it, to take control and seize every opportunity. The power is in the choices I make each day. I eat well, I live well, I shape me!” – Unknown
Recovery (n) – when someone suffering from a disease regains possession or control over the issue. Over 10 months ago I faced the hardest obstacle of my life, disordered eating. Disordered eating is abnormal eating behaviors that, by themselves, do not warrant diagnosis of an eating disorder, however have common features such as chronic restrained eating, compulsive eating, binge eating with associated loss of control, and self-induced vomiting. Disordered eating also includes behaviors that are not characteristic of any eating disorder, such as irregular, chaotic eating patterns, ignoring physical feelings of hunger and satiety (fullness), use of diet pills, emotional eating, and night eating.
Since facing my disordered eating obstacle over 10 months ago I’ve made huge progress, including cutting my weekly workout/runs down while increasing my food intake and implementing personal training. Through my progress I was able to see that life wasn’t about being skinny but more about being healthy. This progress of course didn’t happen overnight and I still very much battle with the issue everyday, fighting with myself to remember that there is much more to life than being 115lbs, being skinny and always worrying about my weight. Even during the rough days I always remind myself of the progress that I’ve made, the inspiration that I’ve given to other individuals and the overall happiness I’ve gained. Yes, I still run, which I’m sure you can tell. Running for me is therapy, it reminds me to keep going, to continue to push through this obstacle that no matter what, I’ll never let this issue relapse or define me. Many have argued that running is only fueling the fire, however I’ve learned that through moderation, healthy eating and a strong mindset running is not causing the issue but rather reminding me of my past and how I need to continue to push forward. As my most recent tattoo says, “Progress not Perfection.” Something that will always remind me that there is no such thing as perfection and that all I can do is to continue to strive for progress, to continue to push forward and better my life not for others but for myself.
So as my opening quote says, “Today is my tomorrow. It’s up to me to shape it, to take control and seize every opportunity. The power is in the choices I make each day. I eat well, I live well, I shape me” is exactly what I am doing!